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Something major has happened this year and I wanted to share it with you.

After a rough year personally, and a terrible last quarter of 2009, it was no secret here on My Living Canvas that I was eager to welcome 2010.  And as a follow-on to some of my earlier posts on meaninglessness, questioning purpose and the pursuit of fearlessness, I want to let you in on the secret to my success thus far in 2010.  For some this will be a no brainer, for others this will be a joke.  But believe me when I tell you, something very specific has made a life changing difference in my day-to-day life this year and I want to let you all know whats working for me.  I want you to know where I found hope and offer some of that hope to you as well.

The Bible.  Thats it.  Thats all.  Not confession, not repentance, not prayer, not church attendance, not corporate worship, but the pure Word of God has literally changed my life this year.

For the first time in a VERY long time, with God’s help, I have spent time each day reading the Bible.  I found a reading plan that I am following through http://www.youversion.com and I am able to keep up with my reading and track my progress on the youversion.com website.

What has happened as a result of this daily time in the word is purely a supernatural transaction between my soul and the Spirit of my creator. I can’t point to any one specific verse that I read that “changed my life” I can’t refer to a particular passage of Scripture that caused things to go different for me.  All I can tell you is that, ever since I started incorporating daily Bible reading into my day-to-day life, I have experienced a tremendous sense of peace, the most overwhelming sense of peace I think I have ever felt in my life.

It’s also no secret on this blog that I am a believer in Jesus Christ.  I talk about my personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ quite often on my blog.  So this may come as a big shock to some of you that I wasn’t reading my Bible all along.  And let me clarify that, I did not intentionally STOP reading my Bible last year, I just struggled to find any sort of rhythm to incorporating the Bible into my day-to-day life.  I let the pressures and worries of life prioritize my life instead of the Word of God.  And the minute I began incorporating the Bible back into my everyday life, it was as if God was right there waiting to dump peace on me.  And I have been swimming in the river of His peace every day that I spend time reading the Bible.

Last year, particularly during the last quarter of the year, if you asked me what was the ONE thing I wanted more than anything in life my answer would’ve been PEACE.  Freedom from the kind of anxiety that keeps you up at night, leaves your stomach in knots, and turns you into a weird person that you don’t even recognize.  I wanted to believe, at a gut level, that I could rest and that things would be ok.  But I couldn’t “will” myself into this kind of peace.  It didn’t come until I sat my soul down in front of God’s word and let those words minister to me in a way that can only be described as the work of God’s Holy Spirit.

As I said earlier, it’s Gods Word alone that has been the difference in my life.  That’s not to say that things like prayer, fellowship, and corporate worship are not important elements in a Christian’s life.  They are CRITICAL.  But the change that I am living right now didn’t come directly from those things, the change has come from reading the Bible.  God’s Word is the difference. Plain and simple.  Those other elements of living the “Christian Life” have enhanced my experience but, if not for feeding daily on God’s Word, I am pretty sure I would still be one big ball of anxiety.

I say all this simply to share what has happened in my life so far this year, and in hopes that maybe this will encourage someone else who desperately desires peace.  Even if you’re skeptical, just try it.  The Bible says, “Taste and See that the Lord is Good,”  and “People don’t live on bread alone but by every word that comes from God.”  We have an entire book full of messages to us from God.  And something magic happens when you sit and read.  You realize things.  Your understanding deepens. Your ability to persevere strengthens.  Your hope is restored.  I can’t tell you HOW.  There is not formula for it.  It just happens.  “The Word of God is living and active.“  I am a personal living testimony that this is FACT.

God’s invitation is permanently open.  It like He’s saying “Try Me!”  You really can’t screw this up.  All you have to do is read and listen.  He does the rest.

Don’t believe me, or believe me whole or even halfheartedly, just give the Bible a try and see if something doesn’t happen.  Youversion.com is a great place to start.  You can register for an account and choose from 20 different reading plans to help keep you on track.

Let me know how this works out for you.  I pray you discover God’s presence and peace through feeding on his Words.

May the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 5:1-5

Oh, Nine…

As we bid farewell to 2009 I have to admit that in my heart I am saying, “Good Riddance!!” This was the first year of my life that I attended more funerals than weddings, worked harder and longer than I have since Saxby’s 2002 Senate race, and struggled through a depression that lingered like bad congestion.  Needless to say I am ECSTATIC at the thought of beginning anew.  But before I kick 2009 in the pants I wanted to take this moment to focus on the positive of 2009 and list out a few of my favorite blog posts of the year.

1. My First 5K
Out of everything that happened in my personal life this year, this is by far my most proud accomplishment. I blogged about it throughout my training leading up to the actual race. You can click the running category link for more entries relative to my training. I am also proud to say that I am pressing on with running in 2010 and am already registered for the 2010 St. Patrick’s Day 8K!

2. Feed a Child, Save a Life
Another personal high point of 2009 was becoming one of the 15 founding members of David’s Hope International, a fund raising and relief organization my friends and I started after returning from Eburru, Kenya in January. We accomplished alot as a brand new organization including securing our 501(c)(3) status from the government in record time and raising over a quarter million dollars in only 10 months. Work responsibilities kept me from fully engaging in DHI as I wanted to this year but I plan to redouble my commitment to the group in 2010. There is nothing more important to me in 2010 than helping feed, clothe, educate and nurture the destitute children we worked with in Kenya. We actually sent our first ever DHI mission team back to Kenya on Sunday and they are working there now. Check out our web site davidshope.org for more info.

3. How I met My Husband series
After hearing a sermon that inspired us to share our “marriage testimony”, Brian and I decided to “go public” with the story of us. We have never shared our story so intentionally as we did this year on the blog, and I say we because Brian read and approved each message. He may have even tweaked a few parts, I can’t remember for sure. In any event, it was a blessing to look back at how God orchestrated our meeting, courtship, engagement, and marriage and we LOVE sharing our story with others. We actually are now leading a small group full of newly-weds and are looking forward to continuing to share the joys and sorrows of married life with these new young couples!

4. Honoring Amy
I mentioned at the beginning of this post that I attended more funerals than weddings this year. One of those funerals was in honor of my friend Amy Knapp who died of cancer earlier this year. She was too young to die like that. Its still something I can’t fully process, why God wanted her back so soon, but I know that we will see each other again and I am pretty sure she is hanging out with my grandma right now who just passed two weeks ago. I know we don’t know a whole lot about the next life but what I do know is that I going to see my loved ones again because we have one thing in common faith in Jesus!!

5. I’m Mrs. Bright Side
Earlier this year I started a second blog called The Daily Bright Side. I was looking to blog about the sparks of brightness and light that make the days more enjoyable. I tried keeping up two blogs for a while but it was way too much for me to manage both the Daily Bright Side and My Living Canvas so I decided to bring the Bright Sides to my main blog as a permanent on-going feature. Click on the Daily Bright Side category link to read the bright sides of 2009!

So there you have it, my personal top 5 of 2009.  I hope you enjoy them.

Oh, and one more thing, 2009 brought us all the joy of GLEE on FOX.  I would be remiss if I didn’t give an honorable mention to my favorite show of all time.  If you have not seen Glee, check it out on Hulu.

So in honor of Glee I am posting the most fabulous concluding performance to the first season.  This is truly MUST SEE TV people!


Top Posts of 2009

In the week of reflection, today I am taking a moment to review some of the most popular blog posts of the year here at My Living Canvas.  I always find it interesting to take a look at what people are most interested in reading about on my blog and I think the stats are a pretty accurate reflection of that. Ive posted the top 12 of 2009 below. Tomorrow I will post my own personal favorites of 2009 for your reading pleasure:-)

1. What’s Your Life Verse?
In April 2008 I visited Israel with Joel Rosenberg and The Joshua Fund. The trip was spectacular. While I was there, I spent a great deal of time reflecting on my faith. Mid-way through the trip, we all got an opportunity to buy jewelry engraved in Hebrew and we could pick what we wanted engraved on the jewelry. Some of my friends were having their “life verse” engraved on the jewelry. I liked the idea but hadn’t really picked a “life verse” for myself. So I spent some time thinking through possible life verses, which led to this blog post. I am glad that its the most popular blog post on My Living Canvas in 2009. In fact, this is not only the most popular post of 2009, its the most popular post of all time.

2. Thank You Adam Duritz
I have no idea why this post in the #2 most popular post on my blog. I think its because it has a cool photo of Counting Crows lead singer Adam Duritz. This is one of my favorite bands of all time. In fact, Ive been singing “Long December” all day today. In any event, I am happy a music post made it in the top 5.

3. Happy Chocolate Chip Day!
Did you know that May 15 is National Chocolate Chip Day? I do. And I HEART chocolate chip cookies. This blog lists my all star all time favorite chocolate chip cookie recipe, courtesy of the Blue Willow Inn cooking bible.

4. Mike Sanders on “The Future”
This one just cracks me up. Michael Sanders is one of the graphic designers I work with. He is very talented and very funny. We love to talk pop culture and he always has great insights into the plot lines of shows like Lost and 24. A while back he wrote a post on his blog about the future: “If 1985 could talk to or check up on 2008 to see how the future was going how would the conversation go?” I find this hysterical. But not as hysterical as some of Michael’s other posts on his blog. Check out Thai-Ku and the Candy Corn phenomenon.

5. The Whole World’s About to Change…
This blog is simply the lyrics to the David Crowder Band’s “Surely We Can Change.” It makes me very happy this is one of the top posts because this song is about social justice and caring for the poor, two things I am passionate about and write about on My Living Canvas. I also linked certain words to other things that I think add some value to the experience of reading the lyrics. In any event, I encourage you to check out this song on Itunes and download it. Its just great.

6. The secret to this job,” he said, “is personal relationships.
A quote from one of my all-time favorite movies, Jerry McGuire, is the title of this blog that talks more about personal relationships than it does Jerry McGuire. Check it out. This is one of those I can’t believe I actually posted and am shocked it got this much attention. Its kind of rambly but I think there is some truth in there somewhere.

7. 9-11 through my eyes…
This is my personal remembrance/tribute to that horrific day in our nation’s history. I was working on the Hill at the time and the implications of what happened in DC that day shaped my life in a significant way.

8. Taking On Hell With a Water Gun…
Do you ever feel like you are taking on Hell with a water gun? Meaning you are ill equipped in some way to accomplish what you’re pursuing? Read this blog.

9. Book Review: The Hole in Our Gospel
This year I started blogging for Thomas Nelson publishing house. I love doing this, because I get awesome free books. This book by World Vision US President Rich Stearns is a MUST READ. I explain why in my post. As a side note, this was a particularly special read for me because I actually worked at World Vision for a little while between the Hill and the Church.

10. Book Review: “Fearless” by Max Lucado
Another book review, I give a brief overview of this book. This is another must read, given the uncertain times in which we live, that we can live without fear!

11. 17 Dresses, thank GOD one was White…
Always the bridesmaid never the bride? Think again people. After being in 15 weddings I married the man of my dreams and finally walked down the aisle on my very own white dress. Since then I have been in two other weddings bringing my total to 19 and yes I still have ALL the dresses!

12. FunTime Friday — “i love Jesus but i drink a little.”
This is still one of the funniest things I have ever heard in my life. Please please please listen to this old lady calling in to the Ellen Show. It will make your sides hurt its so funny!

The State of POP 2009

The only thing missing are my Gleeks! Ladies and Gentlemen, the state of POP in the USA.

more about "The State of POP 2009", posted with vodpod

A friend of mine works at USA Today and talks about his work through photojournalism over the past 2 years. Watch this video to see a little about what he has seen through his work at USA Today.

My Me-Maw

My grandmother, “Me-Maw”, passed away Sunday December 20 around 4:30 pm.  She was 80 years old.  A few weeks ago my mother admitted her to the hospital in Memphis because she was in so much pain.  She had Parkinsons and Dementia, but she also had a disease called Neuropathy which no one knows a whole lot about but causes a TON of pain.  My Me-Maw was in alot of pain for a long time, she just hid it and didnt complain much until it became unbearable for her.  So I am glad that the Lord was gracious to her and brought her to the place of perfect peace, joy and rest. And even though its Christmastime, I am still rejoicing knowing that Me-Maw is celebrating Christmas in heaven.  I know we don’t know alot about heaven for sure, but I like to think that Christmas is a big party up there, the best birthday party you can dream of times infinity.  So she is partying with Jesus this week and I think thats pretty cool.

My Me-Maw and I were closer than most grandmother/granddaughters (I think).  When I was small my parents divorced and my dad wasn’t in the picture.  My mom had to go to work and do the single mom thing so I spent a great deal of my childhood with Me-Maw and Pa (my granddad who passed in 93).  They helped my mom out a ton when I was growing up, and still did after she remarried when I was 11.  But as I remember it, for the first 11 years it was mom, Me-Maw, Pa and me.  I practically lived at my grandparents house until I was a teenager so I have a lot of strong feelings and ties to them that I think other folks may not totally understand.  I even find it difficult to explain and I am not going to try to do that here.  I am only attempting to pay a small tribute to my grandmother here and the hand she had in who I have become.

Its interesting, last night the pastor who will perform the service stopped by the house to discuss a few final details with my mom.  He asked me if my grandmother had an influence on me doing mission work.  I found that interesting that he asked me that.  He didnt really ask me much at all but that was kind of a big question with great implications.  I answered him immediately, that “if my Me-Maw had not taught me about Jesus and how to read the Bible, if she had not taken me to Sunday School and Mission Friends and GA’s all those years, I am certain that I would not have pursued mission work when I had the opportunity to do.  She absolutely had a huge influence over my decisions to pursue missions.”

And even though she was so worried about me traveling to the places I have traveled for missions (and probably would’ve preferred that I stay put in the states), she always supported me and always told me she was proud of me.  She let me fly and let me become the woman God was working out in me to be and helped me achieve those dreams in many ways.

When I first started out in my career I always took jobs that didnt pay squat.  First a tv news reporter for a cable station in Atlanta and later a staff assistant on Capitol Hill, those are in no way lucrative positions.  So as you might imagine I racked up a good bit of debt during those years.  My Me-Maw helped me out with one debt in particular, back in 2002, and I promised I would pay her back.  Well, yesterday while my mom was going through some of Me-Maw’s things, she found the check I sent to repay her, never having been cashed.  ‘Thats what Me-Maw’s do,” she would say.

My Me-Maw is classy.  She had style.  She loved to dance and taught me to gitter-bug on the linoleum floor of her kitchen on Courtney Drive.  She always had her hair done and dressed sharp.  She had a sense of style all her own.  She and my Pa even took square dance lessons when I was a kid.  I often tell my friends of her “love story” between her and my Pa, they met and married in TWO WEEKS.  That was back during World War II.  Things were so different then.  The met in Memphis and I find it interesting that after living all up and down the east coast with the U.S. Navy, they settled back in Memphis, where it all  began.  When they got married (quickly!) they didnt have any money so at their reception they split a hostess cupcake.  In their honor, Brian and I gave out hostess cupcakes to the guests at our wedding in memory and hopes that he and I would share a love like theirs. (She married an Ohio boy, too, like me :-) )

She’s made a lasting impact on many areas of my life and I will miss her so much.  But I rejoice because I know I will see her soon, when we all get to heaven.

Thanks for letting me share a little about her with you.  She was one fine woman.  She loved the Lord, loved her family, and loved her church.  I hope they say the same about me one day.

And regarding the question, friends, that has come up about what happens to those already dead and buried, we don’t want you in the dark any longer. First off, you must not carry on over them like people who have nothing to look forward to, as if the grave were the last word. Since Jesus died and broke loose from the grave, God will most certainly bring back to life those who died in Jesus.

And then this: We can tell you with complete confidence—we have the Master’s word on it—that when the Master comes again to get us, those of us who are still alive will not get a jump on the dead and leave them behind. In actual fact, they’ll be ahead of us. The Master himself will give the command. Archangel thunder! God’s trumpet blast! He’ll come down from heaven and the dead in Christ will rise—they’ll go first. Then the rest of us who are still alive at the time will be caught up with them into the clouds to meet the Master. Oh, we’ll be walking on air! And then there will be one huge family reunion with the Master. So reassure one another with these words.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18, The Message

UPDATE!  THE PUG WAS FOUND!  THANKS!!

My dear friend Jenny lost her little black pug this morning in Herndon VA.  If you live in the area or have any contacts there please forward this on to them to be on the lookout.  She is a TINY little girl and is very active.  She wiggled out of her leash and harness this morning and took off.  She has only lived in this area since Spring and Jenny fears she got disoriented and is hiding and scared somewhere.  So if you can help in anyway please contact Jenny.  Below is info from her website

WE LOST OUR PUG!!

If you live in the Herdon, Reston, Fairfax areas or surrounding areas –

please forward this link to anyone you might know.

Reward:$500.00

Black Pug – friendly! Shiny Coat. Small.

Lost today (December 17) at 6am

If found please call:

703.939.0344 or 703.964.6194

or Email us: TugboatJenny@hotmail.com

NO identifying tags / dog came out of harness & leash.

Check Out Broke*

Will Gray, a friend from my undergrad years at Union University is producing a documentary on the music business that I find absolutely fascinating. This dude is probably the most talented “undiscovered” musician I have ever known personally.  His doc is about “breaking in” and this teaser has me on the edge of my seat.  I will admit that I have always fantasized about the music business.  I love music so much, its even one of the main categories of this blog. I play piano and am finally officially learning how to play the guitar, but I made the decision long ago to keep this hobby a hobby.  For those who choose differently, who actually go for it and try to break into this ridiculously competitive business… well, it seems that the road to making a living doing what you really love, for most musicians, is harder than ever to achieve.

From the web site:

Is it possible for an artist to break?

Following on-the-verge artist Will Gray through the recording and release of his debut album (featuring production by Grammy Award-winning producer, T Bone Burnett), Broke* chronicles the stories of artists and executives searching for ways to thrive in the face of today’s music industry challenges. Featuring candid interviews with industry insiders and intimate profiles of some of the brightest emerging musical talent in the country, the film digs beneath the clichés and standard storylines to reveal an industry struggling to find a new identity and an artist who’s simply trying to establish one. Can a new act be “broken”?

So check out the trailer below.  If you dig what he is up to, if you love music and musicians, then stay connected and join the movement.

“… there would be no U2 after that second album. It would have been cut. No “Sunday Bloody Sunday,” no “Unforgettable Fire,” no “One,” no “Where the Streets Have No Name,” no “With or Without You.”
That’s what I’d like you to take away from tonight. I would like to ask the music business to look at itself and ask itself some hard questions. Because there would be no U2 the way things are right now. That’s a fact.”

Bono, Hall of Fame induction speech, 2005

If Christmas is about joy, what is the SOURCE of that joy?  If the traditional western accouterments surrounding the holiday are snatched away do you still experience joy?

I have landed face to face with this hard question this Christmas because my family is facing the impending death of my grandmother.  She has been sick for a long time, she has been in the hospital for the last couple of weeks and will soon be released to hospice in a couple of days.  She is not too alert and in a ton of pain.  Needless to say, its difficult to be joyful in times like these.

However, I think that, given the situation, we need Christmas more than ever.  We need Jesus and we need NOT to allow the pain and sadness of this situation to overshadow the truth that,

“unto us a child is born and unto us a son is given,”

It is precisely because of this child born so long ago whom we celebrate on Christmas that we have HOPE in this desperate time.  The right thing to do is to make a choice to allow our minds to be renewed, taking our thoughts captive and making them obedient unto Christ, the author, perfecter and finisher of our faith who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, so that we could be called children of the Most High.

This child who we speak of, and sing of, and read of, who was born to us this day in the City of David a Savior who is Christ the King, the Son of God, the Lamb who takes away sins and offers forgiveness to all who believe.

This Christ, for the JOY set before him endured the cross.  I think that now more than ever I need to keep that in mind.  Jesus knew a JOY would come that would be WORTH all the pain and suffering he endured.  Jesus KNOWS the pain my grandmother is experiencing and he felt that on the cross more than I will ever know… for the JOY set before him.  So I believe its safe to say that my grandmother, and all believers who are facing the end of their life, can rest assured that there will be JOY on the other side. A JOY that led Jesus to die a criminal’s death on a cross.  A JOY we wont fully know until we pass from this life to the next and experience it fully in the presence of Jesus.

So this Christmas, even through there has been and will be sadness, mourning and tears, may Almighty God give my family and I strength to know HIS JOY the JOY of the Son of God, the JOY of Jesus whom we celebrate during this season.  The giver of JOY everlasting.  And may that JOY bring comfort in Jesus Name.

God rest ye merry, gentlemen Let nothing you dismay Remember, Christ, our Saviour Was born on Christmas day
To save us all from Satan’s power When we were gone astray
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

In Bethlehem, in Israel, This blessed Babe was born And laid within a manger Upon this blessed morn
The which His Mother Mary Did nothing take in scorn
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

From God our Heavenly Father A blessed Angel came; And unto certain Shepherds Brought tidings of the same:
How that in Bethlehem was born The Son of God by Name.
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

“Fear not then,” said the Angel, “Let nothing you affright, This day is born a Saviour Of a pure Virgin bright,
To free all those who trust in Him From Satan’s power and might.”
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

The shepherds at those tidings Rejoiced much in mind, And left their flocks a-feeding In tempest, storm and wind:
And went to Bethlehem straightway The Son of God to find.
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

And when they came to Bethlehem Where our dear Saviour lay, They found Him in a manger, Where oxen feed on hay;
His Mother Mary kneeling down, Unto the Lord did pray.
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

Now to the Lord sing praises, All you within this place, And with true love and brotherhood Each other now embrace;
This holy tide of Christmas All other doth deface.
O tidings of comfort and joy, Comfort and joy O tidings of comfort and joy

its been a crazy couple of days and for some reason this video is making me happy.

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